As 2010 winds down many people are dutifully making their resolutions lists. I don't do resolutions. I am the type of personality who consistently reflects on how such and such could have been done better or how I could react differently. 2011 is already showing a lot of changes for me. Some good, some not so good, and some of the "have to wait and see". Those are the ones I really don't like. So I have decided to control the ones that I can and try not to control the ones that I can't.
In 2011 my main goal is to do a little soul searching and find what it is that REALLY makes me happy. The world has worn down my weary soul and I plan to claim it as my own once again. Then of course I have the "lose those last 30lbs" dedication that has become a life long goal I believe. At this point I am sure that I came out of the womb proclaiming that "I WILL LOSE THE LAST 30LBS!" but to untrained ears it just sounded like a lot of crying.
I have a confession to make... For a while I stopped baking all together. Someone told me my work sucked and it knocked me down hard. Others started making cookies and I thought, "Well if I suck they can have it all." I just recently started baking again and today I finished my first batch of decorated cookies in 4 months. The ideas just stopped coming and the desire was gone. I stopped doing a lot of things.
Baking is my refuge from the uncontrollable things going on in my life right now. I may not be able to control what's going on in my world but I can damn sure control what goes on in my kitchen. Will this lead to something grande and wonderful? Only time will tell until then I offer this...